Thursday, June 22, 2000

12:11 a.m. Yesterday got a little garish at the end, I have to admit, and I apologize for all the bells and whistles. One thing led to another and I kept piling on the goodies and now when I look at the page I am amazed at its lack of restraint, but that's the way I felt yesterday.

Today, a little let-down and forlorn and one-foot-in-front-of-the-other and it's back to the old normal grind. I feel a little out of focus and I've been fighting off either a stray bug or the effects to a few too many of those little chocolate donuts ...

I always feel as if I'm in terrible trouble if I don't feel so good. In addition to whatever ache I've got, I worry about my place on the assembly line and the people behind me who will have more to do if I slack off. All the invisible people who have more right to happiness than I do.

Where did they all come from?

I have to say that our weather here at the beach has been truly exceptional, and if you have to feel under the weather, this is the weather to get under. Mild, maybe 70 degrees inside at all times ... hotter in the sun, but cool and breezy every night. The most perfect weather.

Have I mentioned that we have no mosquitoes here? Once or twice in the summer I might hear one dive bombing in the night at my head, but that's because we keep the windows open, without screens, and once or twice a year I hear one whining and I pull the sheets over my head and keep on sleeping.

And we also have very, very few flies. No gnats and no no see-umms either. A few crickets, but not the cricket symphony that you hear at night back east. No fireflies, and that's a shame. We have ladybugs, however, and little lizards that skittle along the sidewalks.

But can you imagine how nice it is at night here? The temperature always drops like a stone and you gratefully snuggle on your sweater and maybe move closer to the outside fireplace or heating column. No need to go inside because you're being eaten alive ... I'm still amazed and grateful about the dearth of flies and mosquitoes.

Now I've gone and wandered off. Topics are scattered all over the place.

This weekend we're going to try to make a water fountain feature extravaganza for the outside of our property. We've been circling around the situation for months now -- a few little fishies and a few lily pads and something to keep the visiting kitties from thinking free floating sushi thoughts.

Now I really must wander off, physically as well as mentally. I'm thinking free-form foam thoughts and I know what that means. Heavy head. See you tomorrow.